Contrasting Moods

Saturday was a most frustrating day for me. Nothing could have been worse. Do I have to pander to the whims and whines of those 'customers'? Sometimes, I wonder what my duties are. For a moment, I thought I am in the retail line, strictly adhering to the strongly encouraged attitude signature 'GST' - 'Greet, Smile and say Thank You'. But hey, I am not some Miss Smiley or Congenality who has to put on a fakedly broad smile when I am being scolded or raised voice at for no apparent reason. These people commit an offence and yet they have the audacity to give me shit attitude. I only respect those who deserve to be respected. I have to say I am really fortunate to have helpful and nice colleagues as well as considerate superiors. But in demoralizing times like this, I cant't help wondering if a switch of career is a wise choice.

Sunday was a totally different day. It gives me the 'back to the good old studying days' feeling. My mood took a 360 degrees change. At first, I was in no mood to go for the NWP rehearsal at Neptune, because of the events that unfolded on Saturday but I went. And I was glad that I did! Hehe..it was really quite fun. Most of us were very garblah as to what is the sequence of items to be perfomed and what our roles are. This was the first time I attended the rehearsal and so I was completely lost. When it was the 'breaking tiles' section, I was backstage and then I heard my name being called. I din know it was my turn. So I quickly ran to the stage to take my position and prepared to break the tile. lolzzz. Then was the finale where each of us has to strike a pose (depending on where we stand). I dun noe what pose to take..i simply followed KM and TZ on my left. Then during the 2nd round of reheasal, I actually forgot to go out to the stage for the finale pose(think i must be daydreaming at the back)!

All in all, it was a very enjoyable day. Seeing the rest of the NWP seniors from HQ perform skits and the hiccups that occur during the day add amusement. It has also been a long time since I get to see those shixiong,shijie, shidi and shimei. Nice feeling. :) Most of them have elevated to higher belt levels. I have lost my status as the 2nd highest coloured belt level senior after been missing from grading for more than a year. Which is not a bad thing after all as all along, I feel my skills have been deteriorating at an astonishing speed, and hence undeserving of my current belt status. Hehe..so now I have more seniors to guide me. Looking forward to the actual interesting performance this Saturday whereby I am told to assume the post of stage manager as well since I only perform in a few segments. And hopefully after Sept,I will finally be able to go back regularly for training! Instructor says I can choose to back to practice at HQ if my work schedules deem it inconvenient for me to go back to NUS on sat. Time to grind my skills after the whole IMF event is over.

Nostagia

The CD compartment of my mini-compo is mal-functioning again..so I have to dig out my old cassette tapes to listen. Spent the night listening to Andy's compilation ..Reminscing.

My all time favourite song - 来生缘 Around 15 years. Beautiful lyrics. Soothing tune. Lets sing along. :)

寻寻觅觅在无声无息中消逝
总是找不到回忆
找不到曾被遗忘的真实
一生一世的过去
你一点一滴的遗弃

(*)痛苦痛悲痛心痛恨痛失去你

也许分开不容易
也许相亲相爱不可以

痛苦痛悲痛心痛恨痛失自己
情深缘浅不得意
你我也知道去珍惜

只好等在来生里
再踏上彼此故事的开始

生生世世在无穷无尽的梦里
偶而翻起了日记
翻起了你我之间的故事
一段一段的回忆
回忆已经没有意义

Repeat (*)

Cranky Acts

V drained and tired...think I am not getting enough sleep. Not sure if this is the kind of lifestyle I wish to pursue..occupied with work, meetings, projects and CCA etc...though at times, I do feel a significant sense of satisfaction and achievement. :) At least, I am not leading an idle life. I was overwhelmed by sadness when my colleague told me how a few of her friends suffered from cancer..and how their lives took a drastic change. Life is so unpredictable and short. .haiz. She said we should live life to the fullest and not take things too hard.

Did 2 unimaginable cranky acts in the past week. The first was climbing over the railing at Sheares Bridge! Traffic was incoming and the crowd was terrible. The climbing was a dangerous stunt manz..I was so afraid I was being filmed! *sweats* Anyway, the fireworks were nice but I was not wowed by it . I was simply too tired (cuz of training), too frustrated (idiotic crowd) and was perspiring (hot weather) to admire it.

The 2nd act was taking crazy poses at West Mall. Lolzz. We had a farewell gathering for my best pal ML who is gg overseas for further studies. It was quite a fun evening. We had dinner there, play arcade games under their insistence. I used to be a arcade fanatic in my sec sch days bt my interest has faded over the years. Yesterday's arcade adventure sort of rekindle fond memories of the past. After that, we had a photo taking session. We striked all sort of poses..'buay song', act cool, act cute..whatever u can name. The most funny was doing star jumps across CoffeeBean ....i could somehow sense what those pple were thinking, "These 2 gals muz be kee xiao ' manz..jumping in public.'.haha Poor Andrew had to keep snapping fotos of us..he looked as though he was gg fall zz at any moment.

Mixed emotions

Disappointed in myself? Anger? Ashamed? Perhaps all. Perhaps I could have dealt with the matter in a better way. The incident might not be due to my fault but the more I think about it, the more I felt ashamed due to my incapability to handle the aftermath of it. I could have handled it better. It is a real life test of my leadership skills. People comment that I am cool and steady but for this matter, I feel my performance was inadequate. I feel so horrible now..Another lesson for learning.

Time to go for training...the first time in these 2mths. Looking forward to see my nwp friends.