Thursday, April 12, 2007

silly phase

ok..realized i havent updated for a long time le.....rather that i have nothing and no time to update bah..bascially, it has been a bz period for me..buzzing with activities..to the extent that i have no time for myself.

somehow..feel like updating today cuz well, dunno y, i juz feel kinda lost today and sad..for some silly reasons...sometimes i really wonder y i let myself be affected by some stupid matters...its juz a phase..i suppose....

looking 4ward to mid may...countdown....

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

Decision Making

Dunno what I have been doing these days..seems like got no time at all manz. My dreams all seem to clash with one another due to timing conflict. I have deferred my volunteer duties for more than a year le..n now i m 'supposed' to continue with it. But it takes so much of my time and not to mention, I need to make sacrifices since my own work involves shift duties. But yet, I really wanna go for the volunteering and from the schedule, the training seems very useful and interesting. All this point to one factor - TIME. Should I defer again? But if I do so, I have to go through the process again and its v sianz manz. But if I dun and decide to go 4 it, then I think my degree of social activities is near to zero le and I will be totally drained. And i have other commitments too. Its a choice to be made. Arghhh...I think its time to go into a mini-retreat and give all these matters a serious thought..once again. Time allocation and prioritization. Vexed!

Thursday, February 15, 2007

PERFECT

Feeling very irritated and in low spirits.

Hmm..ok..leaving unhappy things aside..lets see what what I have accomplished to ease some of my irritatedness.

1) My quest for the Perfect Jeans has ended. I have found The One. :)
2) I have finally found the Perfect Folding Mirror after months of searching. This mirror is amazing to me..it has 2 sides..one is the normal mirror...the other side is a magnfiying glass. Out my old rusty mirror goes.
3) I found another Perfect Watch ever since mine was spoilt about 3 months ago. This old watch has accompanied me since JC2.

END.

Monday, February 05, 2007

Floater Lingzzz

Am a floater these 3 months which means I have no specific zone. I actually find this exciting becoz I nvr noe which zone i will be at until the day b4 or even on the actual day itself (since always subject to change). In a way, besides the freshness element (although still can be v routine at times), I feel that I learn more. I enjoy this feeling of floating..lolz. :)

Been working out at the gym regularly. On the other hand, i have been indulging myself in a lot of unhealthy food too..haiz..eg popping eclairs like they cost nothing, chocolates, cheese cakes, twisties and many other junk food. However, on the whole, somehow, I can feel myself becoming more fit (even though i realize i am becoming less agile..contradictory? haizz) ..haha..n hopefully, shedding more kilos. So happy..that i managed to achieve a new timing for the completion of 2.4 km. Ok i noe..this may seem like eh..'so wat?' cuz still quite slow mah..bt to me..it is like a timing i have nvr achieved b4 even during my sec sch days. i wanna maintain this timing..i m not greedy for more :)

And finally, we have SCV at home le! my bro finally re-subscribed to it since 1999..this equates to more dramas , mtvs and variety shows for me to savour. :) damn it..just realized 心花放 ( a hk drama which i have been yearning to watch) is already showing Ep 20 liao. Too late.

Suddenly being pulled to make up the numbers for the captain's ball tournament this wed. It was so funny that we tried so hard to jio members to form the team so that we dun have to participate but last min, 2 of them cant, and bo bian, we still have to go in the end. I havent played this since..i think hmm..sec sch. Hope that I wun lose face again just like during the carom competition the previous time. :D

CNY is coming soon. And I am looking 4ward to my pineapple tarts, bak kwa(Kim Hock Guan only. The rest are never to my taste.) and HBs. :)

Friday, January 12, 2007

自己

已很久没有这么对自己强烈的不满与失望. 我好讨厌这种感觉. 它使我心情低落和质疑自己的才能. 我希望样样都精, 却事实偏偏相反. 是不是该换另一条路走呢? 不知道. 此刻疲惫的我无言以答, 也无心回答.

Saturday, January 06, 2007

SBC Dramas Themevideos

Here are links to the themevideos on youtube. I came across them in the forum..and my...I cant believe I still get to watch a few of my fave local dramas again and to hear the wonderful themesongs. Must watch! I absolutely love them. :D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dr_6gYFHg-4&mode=related&search=

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wrK5dsXCEvI&mode=related&search=

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0vUpnlqqbdQ&mode=related&search=

Friday, January 05, 2007

Crossroad?

Lately, I realize I am not the only one at the crossroad and I take comfort in this. Ok, rather, I realize that actually, a lot of people around me are feeling the same way. We ponder what life is all about, what our purpose is , what we want to achieve and how to seek our 'quest'. Some jovial and carefree friends are not what they seem on the surface. They are still 'searching' in their hearts, plagued by troubles. One more common trait - we are in the same age range. Haha. This makes me wonder. Is this some 'mid XX' crisis where one is prone to vulnerabilities and in perpetual search of his/her identity?