"The more the merrier"

Had a hard time sleeping. My whole body was aching and in the middle of the night, my left shoulder hurt terribly. Bruises on my arms and legs. I was thrown twice yesterday onto the ground all of a sudden. My opponent was simply powerful and quick. His moves were as fast as lightning. He was already very 手下留情 but I think I was too lousy liao. My reflexes were slow and I did not do a breakfall which explained why my head and left shoulder hit the ground in both cases first. Haiz.

I wonder when I can get over my phobia of doing a breakfall. If not, in future sparring, I will definitely be thrashed no matter what my belt level is. I rather stay at my current level until I can do a proper one else damn xia sui manz. Breakfall aside, my sparring skills also suck. Perhaps, if I go sparring every week and gena thrown everytime by experts, then surely one day, I may overcome my fear and truly master it? *in deep thoughts* Hehe..practice posed to make perfect mah. 熟能生巧?